Born a girl named Jeannie, husband/Dom Jack had my name legally changed to Vanessa when we were married. Now, since Jack passed away from cancer a year ago, I found my way to Lush. I'm a 56-year-old G.R.I.T.S., or girl raised in the South (U.S.). I had a successful career as a senior editor in a small publishing house, but now work part-time. I wrote my first erotic story as a collection of memories of my life with Jack. My viewpoint is shaped by growing up in a happy middle-class family in a small city, attending church, and pretty much living a “Norman Rockwell” childhood. I met Jack in college and we fell in love. After some fantasy sex play together, Jack determined that I was ready to become a submissive, and took a risky step to prove it (you’ll have to read my memoir). When I entered my new life, I realized there were many other people living “outside the mainstream” of American sexual mores. Often they had to hide their true natures to survive and thrive. Jack and I had to hide also; but it was easier for us as white college students and later, professionals, who were (mostly) heterosexual and (mostly) monogamous. Jack and I developed a small group of friends who understood and accepted us, some in the D/s lifestyle and some not; and we, in turn, began to welcome, support, and even mentor others who were “outside the mainstream.” Jack and I came to realize, although we had many advantages, that we too were members of the LGBTQ+ community as well as its allies. Like others in that community, the love between Jack and I seemed strange and even monstrous to some; but it was love nonetheless. Now I have found a new home on Lush. Suddenly, now, I find myself trying to walk a new path. Walk with me as I make this new journey into, what is for me, the unknown. I'm very excited that avataransk.ru has begun to publish my memoir! With Adele's help, I've been able to modify the first chapter to pass Lush censorship. The uncut memoir is still available on other sites. If you want to read it, chat or email me and I will give you the location. Some thoughts....who are we, the Ladies of Lush? Most are simple seekers, of friends, of fun, of ways to cut the boredom of the survival struggle. Some are wounded, searching for solace among the healthy and the other wounded. Some are trapped within lives, relationships, or bodies that no longer meet their needs, or never met them. Welcome, sisters of the soul, whoever you are, wherever you come from, and whatever you seek. We hold you up to the light...and you glitter alongside of us all...== Results from bdsmtest.org 02/17/2020== 97% Exhibitionist 95% Voyeur 95% Rope bunny 94% Slave 91% Submissive 90% Degradee 87% Non-monogamist 84% Masochist 75% Pet 63% Boy/Girl 58% Experimentalist 47% Owner 47% Sadist 44% Master/Mistress 43% Vanilla 42% Daddy/Mommy 39% Primal (Prey) 37% Brat 26% Degrader 25% Switch 18% Primal (Hunter) 16% Brat tamer 15% Rigger 13% Dominant 1% Ageplayer /
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Chapter 1: Jeannie is pushed over the edge. The story starts with my love affair with Jack. I was known as Jeannie then. Yep, Jack and Jeannie. We attended small colleges in the South that were located about an hour's drive apart, but we both came from the same small city. We had attended different high schools but met through a mutual friend who later attended the same college as Jack....
Added 08 Feb 2020 | Category BDSM
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The next morning, I awoke in my own bed to my mother calling me for breakfast. I had dreamed the craziest shit...then I shifted in the bed and became immediately aware of the welts on my bum and the itching of my shaved pussy and realized that it had been no dream! I hit the toilet then quickly pulled on some shorts and a top and slipped into house slippers and went down to eat. Dad had...
Added 13 Feb 2020 | Category BDSM
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The time apart seemed like it moved like a turtle in peanut butter. Finally, however, another glorious weekend dawned where we could be together. This time, I was staying with Jack at his school. Now, a lot of schools were beginning to experiment with coed dorms. Not MY school, and not Jack’s either. But, the recognition that college-age boys and girls would be, well, you know, boys and...
Added 16 Feb 2020 | Category BDSM
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